6 weeks and going strong…

30 Apr

12:53 am

Ain’t nuttin’ gonna hold me down! Oh, no! I got to keep on movin’!

Welp, I’ve started like, four posts and can’t seem to organize my thoughts tonight, so I’ll be brief: 42 days again and counting. Six weeks has flown by, and I’m actually going to hit up my journal now and see what, exactly, I’ve done in those past 6 weeks! And, while I am looking forward to having 12 weeks under my belt again, I know the next 6 weeks holds a lot of choices and changes. So, I’m not looking forward to it going fast.

I remember how grateful I was when I had 6 weeks last fall. Now? Of course, I’m grateful. However, it just doesn’t seem like that long of a period of time. And, the cravings are still there, they just come in the form of reactions. I can see my reactions much more clearly than I can feel my cravings, so…in that way, it’s GREAT to be at 6 weeks again and be on such solid ground. Cravings have morphed into reactions, and the latter are much easier to observe and deal with.

I had a lot to say tonight re: AA, and cravings, and anger, and addiction, and… Alas, it’s not gonna happen. For tomorrow then. Say night, night, Unicorn with Sparkly Teeth. You’ve been a strong girl lately.

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6 Responses to “6 weeks and going strong…”

  1. carrythemessage April 30, 2013 at 5:15 am #

    See? This is exactly the kind of thing I talk about when I mention that you seem to be on a totally different wavelength this time. Cravings now equal reactions. Done. Easy. Move on. It’s a wonderful way to put it! when it’s simplified like that, it’s easy for people like us to just *get it*. You are at a point where you see it for what it is, then swat it away. sometimes it’s easier than others, but we do what we need to do and move ahead.

    Love this.

    As for the four tries and not getting anywhere with your post. Perhaps it was meant to be to get the fantastic point you made above. Sometimes short really is sweet. Something I need to learn…lol.

    Great stuff and congrats on 6 weeks!

    Blessings,
    Paul

    • Drunky Drunk Girl May 2, 2013 at 2:34 pm #

      Thank you, Paul!

      I HOPE this lasts. It feels too easy. Then again, like I said to Belle, it took me 3 of these 6 weeks to get back on the mental horse. As in, it’s SO easy to go RIGHT back into that “using” mentality (I feel sad, I want to drink; I feel mad, I want to drink). Now that I’m up and back on my sober unicorn, I see how much work I undid by actually taking that drink. Such a mental game. ARG! But–the good news–I see just how different wine is to me versus someone who hasn’t become “addicted.” I see it as a salve, and my brain is totally grooved to that. I don’t see it as a once-in-a-while treat or sometimes party; I don’t know if I ever will be able to have that mentality again…

      Anyway, I’m feeling strong, committed, and like I said, these 6-week intervals seem to be OK for me. I know I can’t drink, and I won’t. I have a lot I want to do, and I can’t do any of it if I’m hung over (common sense).

      Thanks for your support, Paul. You rock!

      xx

      -DDG

  2. Amy April 30, 2013 at 9:26 am #

    Good for you. 🙂

  3. christinawoods April 30, 2013 at 8:24 pm #

    Yeeeah for the 6 weeks.:-)

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