I’ve missed you all, and I’ve missed sharing the milestones of long-term sobriety (or, several years of sobriety–feels like forever to me, and I know I will never, can never, return to all that). I haven’t blogged much these past six months because I’ve been working a full-time contract and exploring a new (geographical) place, trying to figure it all out, as it were. I’ve been essentially wrestling with a lot of what-if’s. But, I miss my old “sober” life so much. I’m still sober–of course. I was reading a post I wrote for The Fix three summers ago, and while a lot of the comments were encouraging, there were a LOT of garbage ones, too. (Trolls do as trolls are.) I’m glad I didn’t listen to the garbage and have kept blogging–it, alongside my own resolve and self-discovery, has been the cornerstone of my sobriety.
I am starting to wind down my temporary life here–and, hopefully, wind back up my freelancing. Which means, more blogging…and more personal writing and “excavation.” I cannot wait. I feel like I’ve been starving in a lack of substance, sustenance, for six months. I need to write, to create, to explore. I need to be in touch with all the possibilities that emanate from within. I’m glad for the financial opportunity the past six months have given, but I’ll also be very happy to come home for a while (at least for a few months, while I wait out whatever this company decides to do, which, either way, it’s all good) to just be.
More soon! Hope all are well…